Today is the day!

It has been just over 8 years since I got on disability with the label mental illness. I've had many diagnoses from schizophrenia to Bipolar to borderline personality disorder. At the time I started receiving benefits, I was unable to function in simple daily routines. Now, 8 years later, I am scheduled to have a psychiatric evaluation. Why? Because they believe I no longer need benefits. As I write this, I am beyond overwhelmed at what God has done. Just a year ago, I was on meds and cutting DAILY as a way to cope. Yes, I've had to work hard to choose obedience to my heavenly Father's commands but ONLY through His miraculous healing, love and power can I sit here and write that I am days short of being completely off meds for a year and have not cut in months. I not only can take care of myself and be independent, but I am capable of taking on the blessing of pouring into and helping care for four amazing children and teaching them how to grow and function and relate and LIVE. My horse training is at a level I only dreamed of. It is beyond my understanding why God had chosen me, fought for me, and defended me when I was basically scoffing in His face, but I am SOOOOO humbled and grateful to Him. I was a case for many years that educated doctors said would never function normally or be able to work. Many believed I would die at my own hand through my stupid, but desperate, choices. In the eyes of many I was a lost cause. But our God is a God who chooses the fools and the weak of the world. 

 
Thank you Jesus! !! And thank you to those who have believed in the unseen in my life. Tonight I CELEBRATE LIFE that is a gift and so worth living! !!!